the brew*crew adventure

Outside My Window... it's a beautifully cold and blustery day out there today, with the sun's warmly shining rays seeming to shoo away the day's soggy-gray beginnings. The wind's now blowing through the mostly bared branches of our Maple tree, tugging on her last few brown and withered leaves, beckoning their surrender, parading them through the air and scattering them carelessly along the littered, wet ground. A Northeasterly wind has brought this year's first wintery flurries of crystalline flakes our way this morning, quietly covering the fading colors of Fall strewn about our yard with a translucently thin veil of lacey white.

I am thinking... where to start... *sighs* lots... feeling a bit melancholy today I think.

I am thankful for... being able to be home, and therefore available to comfort my cranky-crying-oh-so-miserably-because-she's-teething-baby by holding her close and snugging most of our day away in the rocker, comfort nursing and distracting her with our favorite picture books, even though it means that barely anything from my list of things that I'd needed hoped to get done today is getting accomplished...

From the kitchen... not much as of yet. It's nice and clean though, thanks to N. I baked some wholewheat banana nut bread, muffins and peanut butter cookies over the weekend. I also got the food dehydrator out of storage, cleaned it up and am going to attempt to dry out some apple slices with it. Planning to make baked potatoes, salad and baked bar-b-que chicken for dinner tonight, and then possibly bake some bread and make spaghetti tomorrow.

I am wearing... Okay, am I the only one that always feels weirded out by this question? I mean, do you really want to know, does it even matter? Sorry, melancholy for me usually means I'm thinking way too much about everything as well, though I don't mean to be, I promise! LOL Love this meme, really, other than this question which just bugs me, which probably means nothing whatsoever, except that it just kinda creeps me out for no good reason and I really probably ought to just lighten up a bit, maybe? Um, I'm wearing clothes-I promise, clean ones, and slippers to keep my bare feet off the cold tile floors. Oh, and a sleeping (finally wore herself out with crying) 15 month old baby girl is sprawled over me, cozily snoozing under a fuzzy pink blanket. Maybe I'll just start answering this one figuratively?

I am creating... a menu plan and grocery lists for an early Thanksgiving celebration dinner with my sister, brother and niece who are driving up from the MS Gulfcoast this weekend. Wooo-hooo!

I am going... to be practicing the choreography for the dance I'm participating in with my dance class a lot this week. We're performing it on stage this weekend! It's beautiful, to Steve Fee's Here I am for You off his Sacred Space album but I'm Oh. so. nervous! Um, yeah, just a wee bit of an understatement there! I have to keep reminding myself of what our class motto seems to be:

I'm dancing for an audience of ONE, my Lord alone!

We are learning... about the Great Wall of China, Egyptian Pharoahs and pyramids, a bit more about George Washington, reading some great literature, of horses and revolution, of Zoology and The Story of Inventions, some Geometry and long division, still trying to master those multiplication facts, and the kids are reading chronologically arranged portions of Scripture from the New Testament and then journaling about their readings for their private Bible devotions.

I am reading... lots of reviews and articles comparing and contrasting various digital SLR cameras, specifically Nikons and Canons, as well as some tutorials and reviews of Photoshop Elements software... *sighs* Still a bit confused about what exactly I need, as to which would be the best investment for me, but knowing most any of those babies would be dreamy... Yes, dreaming big photography dreams here lately.

I am hoping... um, to be able to someday actually buy a really nice digital SLR camera? and lens(es) ...hopefully sooner, rather than later. Oh!- And that I don't fall flat on my face when trying to dance ((gracefully-maybe? pray for me!)) this weekend...

I am hearing... T playing Angels We Have Heard On High and Silent Night (two of my favorites) beautifully on her violin, and lots of crying from an unconsolable baby today. She was even crying in her sleep last night, which sounds absolutely pitiful. These molars cutting in are giving her lots of pain.

Around the house... aaaaargh, soooo much mess clutter to clean up. We did get all of the carpeted floors shampooed over the weekend, so that's good. All's clean under that chaos! Haha. But where does all of this stuff come from anyways? Are someone else's black holes dumping on my house? And to think of how much we've gotten rid of this past year already, yipes?! The kids are now getting ready to be picked up for their dance practice, so glad that it's not my turn to take them, worked out perfectly for me to stay here with sleeping baby S today (if only madly barking DOG would shut up! now that their ride is here, arrrgh!). Okay, quiet again, just baby S and I here with now-shushed dog.

One of my favorite things... my contentedly sleeping baby, and the way her fuzzy-haired head smells as she slumbers under my chin.

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week:

1. Finish my menu plans for our Thanksgiving feast and go shopping for everything I'll be needing.
2. Finish cleaning my house up as much as possible before my sister, brother and niece get here on Saturday morning (that includes all laundry and kids' bedrooms)!
3. Practice that dance until I know it by heart and can totally do it without thinking about it, so that I can truly worship as I dance.
4. See to it that T makes it to her basketball tryouts tonight (hoping to stay home while Chris brings her), and N to his game on Thursday, which is at the same time as my dance practice... Sooo, I'll have to drop him off and then head straight over to my practice, bringing the girls along with me, while Chris will go straight from his work to N's game, to watch him and bring him home. Normally Chris stays home with the kids during my dance practices, fortunately this is N's only Thursday game for the next couple of months. Then N his second practice of the week on Friday afternoon.
5. Call up the Symphony of the Mountains to register T to play with the Youth Orchestra, per her violin instructor's recommendation. Oh, she is SO. EXCITED! As am I, for her, to see her living a dream of hers. Thank you Lord.
6. Chris and I plan to get our free-ranging hens fenced in around their house so that we can find out just how many eggs they're laying. We've been finding where the new girls (last Spring's chicks) recently started laying their eggs in hidy-holes elsewhere from their nesting boxes, so we're going to corral them in and fix that problem. Sneaky Samson's coat sure is looking extra shiney these days besides... I'm missing my organic-feed-fed/free-range eggs. C'mon Girls, get with the program here, wouldya!

Here is a picture thought I am sharing...

My Dancing Girls.

I haven't participated in this meme before, Blogger Friend School, which provides a weekly "blogging homework" theme. As I was browsing through some of the amazing blogs listed over at the HSB Awards, I clicked onto this week's theme for the BFS, and was totally inspired to join in, since it goes hand in hand with thoughts and observations I've been having here in the last couple weeks anyways. Technically, I believe that the "assignment" is supposed to be posted on Tuesday?, but in my natural way, I'm posting mine a day two days late!

 

The passion to sing, the passion to draw, the passion to build, the passion to ride, the passion for reading, the passion for nature… the list is endless. Some children exhibit their passion from day one, others need an experience to spark that passion.

Assignment: Share a field trip/lifestyle learning experience where you really felt you were bringing good things to life for your children, where something came alive for them, or ignited a passion.

This is something I've been thinking about a lot lately... the facilitating of that passion to learn, to build and to creatively express ones self; that desire to grow and to become something great that's within us all, my own children specifically, manifesting itself in so many various talents. As a parent and my children's primary instructor, it's important to me that I culture their God-given abilities and desires, bringing these good things to life, if you will... while at the same time realizing that I truly am not taking the lead... in that it's not all up to me to conjure these up in my kids. Rather, I'm watching, listening, and waiting on the Holy Spirit to show me their intrinsic giftings, and praying for His guidance as I plan our studies and their activities.

As I'm doing my best to daily immerse our kids in an engaging learning environment and introducing them to a variety of inspiring subjects, I am delighted to be discovering their passions with them, and comforted in the remembrance that these precious soul stirrings and that ultimate quickening of their spirits towards Him are all individual workings of His Spirit within them, as we're learning to walk out His Word in our lives together, and therefore not solely dependent upon me, nor anyone else. I need but tune in to them, and especially their Creator, while keeping my eyes wide open to the opportunities abounding in each moment as we journey together each day, lest I miss those small sparks that would ultimately kindle their passions and thereby could someday even dictate their very livelihoods.

I have found that with our oldest daughter, 9yo T, who is my "go-getter", this is an easier thing to recognize; her passions. She talks about it, and initiates doing stuff working towards that end on her own. When she's inspired, the results are much more extravagant and obvious than when our 12 yo son, N is impassioned. He tends to discover passions (like writing, dance, reading a certain book, horse riding) after I've suggested he try something out. Lately I have been fascinated over the inter-connectedness of their blossoming personalities with the opportunities they've been offered thusfar in their young lives. I'm left to wonder over how beautifully it has all worked together... and question which came first, a specific passion or was an experience the catalyst of curiosity turned to desire? I've been musing over what the ramifications of these truths could be, not only in my kids' lives, but in my own as well.

And we know that for those who love God, that is, for those who are called according to his purpose, all things are working together for good.

~ Romans 8.28

It's certainly a mystery profound how the Sovereign Lord choreographs our very lives, nurturing those seeds of talent He placed within us, even as He knit us in the womb, while simultaneously allowing the free-will of our individuality. It's caused me to consider the weighty responsibility Chris and I have as parents to introduce our children- His children- to a wide array of possibilities, directing them toward His truths, and presenting them with an assortment of rich ideas for their minds and hearts to grow upon. Gradually, I am learning to recognize when the "education" is doing its work within them, and to therefore not snuff out the tiny flames which seem yet so insignificant by my own lofty unrealistic adult-perspective qualifying standards, set mostly by pre-conceived ideas of how learning "should look"... Meaningful learning does not necessarily mean a finished *project*. I'm learning to look with my child-eyes again.

For instance, the other day when T showed me the language she's creating for the characters in one of her stories, my first teacherly-Mom thoughts were along the lines of, "well, that's not a real language... why should she be wasting her time and all of that good language interest and energies with this when we could be working on our Latin or Hebrew?" Thankfully, in the next instant, I realized that I was witnessing a beautifully genuine representation of this child's love for language and passion for writing. And so the thoughts I expressed to her were those of encouragement and "why not?, how clever!" and musings over the inceptions of various languages.

But that was not the only challenge along these lines that either one of my kids have thrown at my feeble mind in the last couple of weeks. Last month N, who's been taking guitar lessons for just over a year now (that was his own inspired idea, which he faltered in when it came to the monotany of daily practice), announced to me that he'd like to come up with his own song to play at our co-op's end of the year student presentations ceremony... I immediately had to shush my overly-conservative, doubtful-of-his-being-ready-to-do-that thoughts right up. After months of laboring resistantly through daily practicings on his guitar, he's made it over some kind of mental hump, and now usually plays daily (without my having to tell him to!), and tells me he absolutely loves it. He was also greatly inspired by the movie August Rush. As we're driving home from his lessons, he often tells me excitedly of what he's learning, and how encouraging his guitar teacher is. Just last week his instructor told him that he could play his own songs without having any music written out(?!), and could even learn to play chords he hasn't yet formally learned, just by intently listening to a piece of music and then copying what he hears. Imagine that... I am so thankful for the many wonderfully inspiring people that have been God's vessels of instruction for our kids  (and myself) over the years, what evidence of HIS faithful provision! On so very many levels, this whole parenting/homeschooling business has been such a growing experience for my own faith levels.

And I know that I've mentioned here before of how my daring daughter gets these crazy inspired ideas to do things that are much bigger than any goals I'd ever set for her. I've seen how God has been faithful to send others into our lives to facilitate dreaming and passions that I could not... but I'm apparently a slow learner. Usually my first (natural) impulse is to caution her and help her to pare her visions down a bit, set her sights more realistically... but her fervor and insistence that she can and has already counted the cost of a conceived endeavour has once again inspired me, and as I've let go of the reigns I had moments before fearfully rationally tightened my grip on, I've been further delighted to see how God has sent others to come along side of me/us to see that her fans are flamed and help set her on the path to accomplishing these fantastic goals that I couldn't have orchestrated or provided for on my own, let alone have even decided upon.

Once again, this week it seems that another request, prayerfully offered up by a girl with bigger faith shoes than I can fill has been fulfilled by a generous Father.

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows...     

~ James 1.17

T has praise in her heart. She loves to put on worship music and dance before the Lord enthusiastically. It's something that I've enjoyed doing with my kids since they were babies in my arms, twirling together with hands lifted high. T told me on Monday that she'd like to choreograph her own dance to a Third Day song and perform it at the aforementioned homeschool co-op student presentation ceremony. I gulped down my doubts, astonished at her brevity, again. She proceeded to explain her plans to me, and I just nodded along as I listened, knowing better than to discourage her resolve. "I'm going to ask Mrs. Jamie (her dance instructor- that's another testimony we have of His great provision for us- scholarships for dance lessons) to help me with my moves and figuring it all out." "That's a good idea." "Okay then, you'll have to wait for me a little bit longer after class so that I can talk to her about it." I agreed. And after her dance class ended on Tuesday, I watched as she gingerly approached her teacher, holding her passion close, encased in a dream that she proceeded to share with a trusted confidante. To my great surprise and delight, Jamie agreed to help her and meet with her a half hour before her class, every week- for free! I went back and checked with her myself after T told me, just to make sure it was really alright! Is that crazy-generous, and just like God, or what?! Needless to say, T is so excited about it that she's on fire now, and has asked a dancing friend that we carpool with to join her in the dance! She's been busily drawing and dancing up her choreography plans. Here's what she's got so far:

I tried getting some pictures of her dancing, but she wouldn't cooperate.

She did, however, allow me to take some pictures of her practicing on her violin. This - her opportunity to play the violin this year- is another story of her aspirations met by the willing Hand of Providence.

T has wanted to take violin lessons for years. I believe that the desire was probably first sparked sometime in her toddlerhood, when we spent a great deal of time with friends, whose then highschool daughter played the violin beautifully. She would watch and listen to her play intently every chance that she got. She began asking for lessons a few years ago, but we couldn't afford private violin lessons, and neither Chris nor I can even read music (something which both of our children are now learning to do quite well -without us!).  As I do, I told her that I would join in her praying that if it be His will, that He would provide an avenue for this opportunity for her. Then last year, we were blessed with the means to pay for N to have the private guitar lessons I mentioned above, and she so wanted the same. She confided to me of how she was struggling with jealousy and I reminded her that he too had been waiting for years for music lessons. Her time would come... and to be patient. Meanwhile, she decided to master her recorder and used the book that it came with to teach herself to read music and play quite a few folk songs. She joined a class offered at our co-op for the recorder, and took heart in my reminder not to despise small beginnings.

Then, to our delighted amazement, a wonderful lady decided to teach a strings class at our homeschool co-op this year, specifically violin and cello. T was beside herself with excitement over this opportunity to finally learn to play her instrument of choice - the violin. Now... if only we had a violin. I prayerfully sought the Lord, trusting Him to provide this too, knowing that with Him in it, it would all come together. Chris and I knew that it would have to happen cheaply to be feasible for us. Then towards the end of last school year, it came up at our Bible study with some friends that T was so glad to be looking forward to taking a violin class at our co-op, and since this friend had played for years, we asked her for suggestions concerning our finding a used violin for T. To our thrilled astonishment, she offered to loan T her own beautiful violin for as long as she needed it.

Time and again I have been blessed to see God's orchestration of timely provision for our children's passions, in both their inceptions and continuity. As their Mother and primary instructor, I find rest in knowing that it is not up to me to bring all these good things to life in their worlds,

      ‘ Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,’
Says the LORD of hosts.

~ Zechariah 4.6

but rather I am just an open conduit of His loving kindness and purposes for each of them, His unique creations.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Memory Verse: Philippians 4:8

In conclusion, brothers, focus your thoughts on what is true, noble, righteous, pure, lovable or admirable, on some virtue or on something praiseworthy.

My blog here was actually nominated in the HSB Awards for "Best Unschooling or Eclectic Homeschooling Blog 2008"! so if you feel so inclined, I'd really appreciate your vote! ...though I hardly feel worthy to even be listed among so many wonderful homeschool blogs! There are some really GREAT homeschooling blogs listed there in ALL of the categories so be sure and check them out! You WILL be inspired and encouraged, I know that I certainly have been subscribing to some new favorites! Be sure and check them all out, and then VOTE for your favorites!

 My little 'ol blog here is a finalist for the "Best Unschooling or Eclectic Homeschooling Blog 2008"!

Thank YOU, Wow and whoo-hoo!

I am totally thrilled just to have made it to the list, knowing how many GREAT blogs are out there nowadays, and would be so honored to have your vote! Taking the time to vote in these awards would be a great way for you to show your bloggy love for our humble blog here- as well as for all of the other great homeschoolers nominated in all of the various categories who have put so much time and effort into sharing their own homeschooling journeys, ideas and inspirations through their blogging.

Voting began yesterday, November 10th and ends on November 21st, and remember, every homeschool family is a winner, regardless of whether or not they made this or any other list... and some of my favorite homeschool blogs (which I nominated) didn't even make this list (since the finalists had to have been nominated three times for that specific category)! Blog on all of you rockin' homeschoolers!

 What are the Homeschool Blog Awards all about? So glad you asked... Good question, and here's the answer:

Back in 2005, SpunkyHomeschool thought up the idea of giving homeschool bloggers the oportunity to win blog awards because we were not likely to get noticed by mainstream blog-award-givers. Spunky’s first year of the Homeschool Blog Awards were a complete success even though there were very few prizes offered. Not only did quite a few homeschool bloggers get a much deserved pat on the back for their “labor of love”, but all of us were able to join together as a group - no matter what type of homeschooler we were - and learn about all the talent among our ranks. Some of us met new bloggers, made new friends, and found new blogs to read that continue to inspire us to be better homeschoolers.

When Spunky decided to step down from the blogosphere in December of 2006, the Homeschool Blog Awards got skipped. Sprittibee decided to take up the cause…. only she wanted to do more than just awards. She wanted to host a site that would be a hub for all homeschoolers to come and connect. In 2007 after realizing that the vision for the site was too big for just one person to manage, she began to recruit authors to help bring daily homeschool goodness to the site. Now the HSBA isn’t just an award, it is a whole community and a great place to bookmark.

 Click here to see the other nominees in this category, and to vote for the brew*crew adventure!

Click here to see the nominees and vote for all of the various categories.

Again, thank you to all of my wonderful readers who keep coming back, I'm feelin' the love!

If you're a fan and haven't yet, please go VOTE!

...that seasons change... and to everything there is a season.

Thursday Photo Challenge: Thankful

A few of you were interested in hearing a follow-up as to whatever became of the offending book I'd run across at our local public library. So here I am, finally writing an update... maybe it'll be a post sufficient enough to break the last month of  blogging silence around here and jump-start some writing vibes for me! I do have so much to write about, just lacking time and sufficient brainpower I think! Heh.

Anyways, after speaking with the librarians the first time, and being told that the matter would be looked into, following up a second time (as I'd mentioned in the comments section of prior linked post), and then upon inquiring about the matter a third time, I was informed by our librarian that the book had indeed been permanently removed from circulation! Whhoooo-Hooo, success!

The librarian then explained to me that she'd knowingly just pulled it for the reason of it's being "dated" and "too old/worn out", since to have pulled it because of a patron's complaint (in this case, mine) would have been a much more involved process that wouldn't even had necessarily been able to keep it off the shelf as the method she chose has done. She said that I would have had to read the book in its entirety and then submit a formal, written complaint that would have then been brought before a board for review- which she said can be a long, drawn out process.

I told her that I didn't really care what reason she gave, and that I am just thankful to have it removed, as are many other local parents! So I guess that the moral of this story would be to not underestimate the reach of your own voice. Be vigilant, be respectfully polite (thereby hopefully making your librarians and neighbors your allies) and be encouraged- as am I- that one person can make a difference.

Now... for anyone new to this story, please go and read my original post, "livid in the library", before you go thinking that I'm some sort of book-burning, thought-censoring fascist... I assure you I am NOT! I'm just against p**n residing in the children's section of the public library, and I'm thinking hoping that you'd probably agree that *this* book is particularly inappropriate for our childrens' shelves.

The most important motive in the school and in life is the pleasure in the work.

~Albert Einstein

This picture was sneakily taken last Spring, with my handy-dandy zoom lens feature. I had a hard time choosing between it, or this one for this theme. One things I've loved about homeschooling over the years is all of the extra great quality time the kids have gotten to spend learning with their Dad, afforded to us by our being able to work around all of his wacky work-schedules.

Thursday Challenge: for fun and learning

Photo Theme for Today: "SCHOOL" (Students, Campus, School Building, Backpacks, School Supplies, Desks, Books,...)

Next Week: PLANTS (Garden, Vegetables, Fruit, Flowers, Trees,...)

There's some great posting going on over at the *shiny-brand-NEW* Christian Unschooling website. I am so honored to have been invited to actually contribute articles to this project now and then. The purpose of all the homeschooling writers that are contributing to the site is simply to offer:

Encouragement and resources for Christian unschooling, relaxed/eclectic home educating families–living in freedom in Christ.

I pray that it does so...

Heather at An Untraditional Home wrote an article recently posted, Confessions of a Homeschool Mama, in which she concedes,

Dare I say that we, despite our plans and ideals, are unschoolers?

Heh. And I just had to smile when I read it, as I could have written the same line. It seems to be the story of our entire homeschooling career! Me- planning like mad each summer and Fall, and then life happens, days slip into weeks, and my plans and schedules are trumped by one unplanned event, unkempt day, or wonderful learning experience after another... *LOL* Guess I'm learning to roll with the punches... Still can't help myself from making extravagant plans from which to pull from as we study over each year, but I'm also relaxed enough in our approach to enjoy those many inspired moments and days of unexpected delight-directed learning that the Lord and my children's beautiful minds bring our way regularly.

I have continually been amazed at what my kids have learned and accomplished over the years, without my supervision! I remember being caught quite off-guard and a bit worried when T basically taught herself to read at age 4/5, and I had yet to teach her phonics! We still went over the phonograms with games and workbook exercises that she begged for, but wow, I sure didn't see that coming! There have been numerous similar instances of budding minds blooming on their own around here over the years. Spontaneous nature studies abound, experiments, art projects and research from inspired questions asked, etc.

However, I’m also encouraged by how much they love great literature that I’ve carefully chosen and suggested, even to their own surprise. I cannot tell you how many times now they’ve groaned over beginning a book I suggest, only for me to find them still snuggled up with it like an hour later… it’s become a running joke around here when I pull out a book from our shelf of required reading for the year. Even hours of seeming aimlessness have turned into some pretty interesting projects, games and memories that simply would not have even been discovered had the kids not had plenty of uninterrupted time on their hands... to think, improvise, and to create.

Yeah, “learning in freedom” (love that term), aka. "life-long learning", aka. "delight-directed learning", aka. "relaxed-eclectic CMing" (as I like to call it) is definitely a balancing act here for this Mama, to discern how and when to direct or when to just stand back and not interrupt their groove~ simultaneously. When done with thoughtful intention, both approaches can and will facilitate growth and certainly do complement each other in playing a meaningful role in learning. But I’m finding that it’s easier to know *how* to accomplish this the more that I really tune into the kids’ interests and needs.

That, after all, would truly be the heart of good teaching, would it not? To inspire, and then to come along side of one with helpful direction and guidance, but only as needed. I guess that figuring out the “as needed” part is where it gets tricky, and probably even varies from one child/family to the next… It truly is a matter of understanding, something the Lord promises to give to those who ask.

My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,

 turning your ear to wisdom

and applying your heart to understanding,

 and if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,

 and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,

 then you will understand the fear of the LORD
and find the knowledge of God.

 For the LORD gives wisdom,
and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.

~ Proverbs 2.1-6

When I was over there at the new site this morning, I happened to notice that the quote for today, generously provided by Jena at Yarns of the Heart (another fab contributor to the said new site), seemed particularly fitting to these thoughts as well, naturally...

Education is understanding relationships.

~ George Washington Carver

A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for.

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Outside My Window... It's a rainy morning. The pepper plants and marigolds that I transplanted over the weekend, from the garden boxes down by the apple tree, to a new bed here in the backyard, with a bit more shade, are looking much happier in their new home.

I am thinking... I'm trying to be more disciplined and consistent with my writing. Thus, even though it's a day late, I'm still posting my weekly daybook here, on Tuesday. I also entered my last entry, livid in the library, into a carnival, which is a first for me. Renae did such a beautiful job of hosting the 139th Carnival of Homeschooling Edition this week. I just love her Women's Independence Day theme. Be sure and check out the wonderful posts at the HS Carival if you get a chance sometime this week, or whenever.

I am thankful for... the rain, a wonderfully thoughtful Father-in-law (thank you), my iMac's being restored to us, my digital camera... pictures to capture memorable moments in time, my family to take pictures of, and God's beautiful creation too.

From the kitchen... the smell of toasted cinnamon and raisin ww bagels, mingled with freshly brewed coffee. Um, needs cleaning in a big way.

I am wearing... my hair in a ponytail (been wondering if I should get it cut), black sweat pants, forest green "Great Smoky Mountains" t-shirt that I'd actually bought at a thrift shop in Biloxi, MS.

I am creating... a clean house today, and a yummy meal for my beloved to come home to.

I am going... to pick up some groceries later, may even wait until tomorrow, and to a friend's house tomorrow.

I am reading... the myriad of wonderful posts from the 139th Carnival of Homeschooling as well as those from the Charlotte Mason Carnival's Back to School Planning Bash. Also been reading from an over-sized, hard-back copy of ~ FRANKLIN, BENJAMIN. Poor Richard: The Almanacks for the Years 1733-1758. By Richard Saunders. Wherein are retain’d... the Author’s Prefaces, Proverbs, Verses, & entertaining Remarks... Introduction by Van Wyck Brooks... Illustrations by Norman Rockwell.~ with the kids. Would you believe that I picked up this beautiful old 1965 copy from our library's discard shelf for a mere $1.50 a couple of summers ago, in great condition? I'm seeing it selling online for upwards of $100! I guess they're getting rid of all the gems, making room for newer books. *sighs* We've also been reading to each other from other library books on the Revolutionary War time period, some bios of Henry, Washington and Franklin... fascinating stuff.

I am hoping...

I am hearing... kids busily working on cleaning their rooms. This morning, over breakfast, N announced that he'd "given himself an assignment for the day, to clean his room". I laughed and told him that's good, because we're on the same page then, since I'd determined that I need to get the house clean today.

Around the house... the floor is strewn with stuff baby S has pulled out of every room and dropped at whim, clean laundry on the couch waiting to be folded, folded laundry waiting to be put away, big, black wads of Samson's hair all over the floor (even though we've been brushing him often, his 100# self still keeps shedding... and we have to vaccuum EVERY SINGLE DAY...aaagh!)

One of my favorite things... rainy days.

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week:

• Putting together plans for our Fine Art Mondays with a friend. She's teaching Latin to our kids for an hour or so, and then I'm teaching them Art, along with Art appreciation as scheduled on AO, for an hour or so. Therfore, today, I need to get my creative/artistic thoughts and books together to look over and pull from.
• I'd also like to replant the rest of the marigolds up closer to the house, and get the front garden bed weeded.
• Need to set up my bloglines account, which I just started a couple of days ago... plan to start keeping up with my favorite online reads a bit more methodically via subscribing to their RSS feeds. I hear it's easier, and quicker. I'm so behind the times...
• I'm brainstorming ideas with T for our monthly "girl-time" get together with friends, which T and I are hosting at our house next month.

Here is a picture thought I am sharing...

Sisters...

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Outside My Window... A sunny morning has turned into a breezy, somewhat cloudy afternoon. Clothes drying on the line, and a new swing set that our neighbor gave us over the weekend. Their grand kids have outgrown it, and we thought that it would be wonderful to have here for baby S, who LOVES the slides and swings at the park. It's turned out that N and T are having as much fun on it as baby S is... well, almost as much.

I am thinking... Has it already been a whole week since I did my first daybook post? Wow! Yikes... and I'd really like to finish reorganizing my books closet today.

I am thankful for...

• *The joy that resides in my 9yo daughter's heart, evidenced by how she often hums to herself as she writes, or draws, as she's doing now, while working on her "Horse Study Notebook" at the table beside me.
• *That our sweet 1yo (on Thursday!!) baby girl has finally gotten into a nice routine of taking afternoon naps, for about an hour, every day.
• *For a weekend of bounty, that started with Chris calling me while we were at the park on Friday, "to tell me the good news", that Apple is paying to fix our iMac (the logic board needs replacing)!! Wooohooo! It continued with all of our great frugal finds this weekend: from the perfect set of old, white glass salt, pepper & sugar shakers at our fave antique store we meandered around on Saturday, to the "ba-by" that baby S found there for $1, to the new Raggedy Ann doll T found for Aunt Alicia, to the "collectible Blue Ribbon Ranch Breyer horse!" that T also found for $1, to the new (to us) *free* swing set our neighbors were giving away (just in time for S's b-day!) that Chris spotted the sign for as we drove home from church on Sat. night, to the mig-welder that Chris found for sale on Craigs List for a mere $20?!
• *That N is actually interested in learning how our government works, and so is somewhat enjoying this Government 101 course we started a couple of weeks ago, which he'll be finishing up just in time for his "Presidents & Politics" co-op class to start in Sept. He said that he's excited to be able to better understand what he's talking about when discussing politics, (um, yeah, he and a buddy do actually rangle over politics, got pretty into it with the whole Paul vs. Huckabee controversy, heh.) and for this co-op class.
• *Did I mention that Apple is paying to fix our iMac?! I'll have my Mac back! And be able to upload pictures again... wheee!
• *For a husband with such determined initiative, who actually called Apple for himself, even after the computer techie guy who's working on our Mac said that ours, being a 2nd Generation, wouldn't qualify for some kind of recall thing because of faulty logic boards... but apparently he was mistaken. We bought ours within a window of a few months that made it qualify. It had even occured to me that morning that he probably would get results when he did call, even though I'd initially thought it pointless and his fervor in insisting that we do so misplaced! Figures, he was right again. ;P I've learned from Chris to take the time to go out of my way to call and ask, and check on things, even when I doubt the validity or point in doing so...  There's a whole lot of mundane, every day truth to that lofty saying of old, "you have not because you ask not"... it's true. That one call saved us over $400.
• *That we have this old lap-top to load N and T's math programs onto, since their old pc died this weekend... it won't even re-boot. Aren't computers fun?
• *That the lady who gave T the violin to use for lessons found that she also had a brand new violin case, AND a bow to go with the violin, both of which she'd forgotten about, but found and brought over last week. Saved us $120- the price of a new case and bow! (Wow, so actually the blessings of bountiful savings started even earlier in the week!) *Ahem* AND
• *That same friend also found another violin, and bow with case that she was happily willing to lend to a friend of ours who was also prayerfully wishing for them! How cool and wonderful is that?!
• *Baby S in all her cuteness... the pitter-patter of her little feet as she's run, run, running for a door open to "outside", all of these sweet kisses that my baby girl has been giving us lately, on my leg while I'll be cooking dinner, on my face, or belly upon awakening... how she starts pumping her little legs and throwing her hands up in the air to dance at the sound of music, how she holds her "ba-by" so close as she whispers the word "ba-by" and loves it, how she'll bring me books, and backs up into my lap, knowing that I'll stop just about anything and read to her, how she celebrates when she hears us say "bath", or says "nigh-nigh" to everyone before bed... etc. Thank YOU Lord for this baby that I prayed so long, and waited so wistfully for...

From the kitchen... N doing the dishes, his turn... he and T squabbling over stupid stuff, just called her out, reminded her she's supposed to be reading.

I am wearing... jean capris (with spilled yogurt stain on them) with a teal & pink X-alt t-shirt and my fave, comfiest American Eagle turquoise flip-flops.

I am creating... a clean books closet and mopped floor, etc. Cleaning the house REAL good and thorough, so that when my Mac is back I can play with it to my heart's content for a week or so... blog some pics galore. I'm creating some posts in my head, of course. Still working on our homeschool plans and schedules for the year too.

I am going... to take N to his guitar lesson and pick up T's violin book from Music Doctors while there... um, we got all loaded up into the truck when I realized that I'd left my keys in the car, which Chris took to work this morning. Aaaargh, and we still haven't gotten that spare made yet?! We have a spare car key, and house key, but not a spare truck key. How is that?!

I am reading... The Book of the Dun Cow by Wangerin aloud to N and T. They're absolutely loving this tale, which so wonderfully personifies the farmyard animals, as the keepers of Wyrm, and is a favorite of mine from childhood. Next we'll read its sequel, The Book of Sorrows. I think that our having chickens (who are the heroes in the story, along with Mundo Cani dog) makes it doubly fun. I'm also reading The Pilgrim's Progress Devotional by Ford, along with my daily Bible readins, and The Pilgrim's Progress aloud to N and T.

I am hoping... to get all of the laundry on the floor and in the baskets in my room put away, and keep my bedroom floor clean, completely, for a long time. Is that even possible?

I am hearing... T telling me of her recollections of reading Chanticleer and the Fox, as she's run and pulled it off the shelf when I just mentioned that The Book of the Dun Cow is based upon that story... all when she's supposed to be reading her chapters from King of the Wind for today!

Around the house... baby S has strewn a giant deck of "Hearts" cards on the floor (among other things). All of the curtains are pulled back to let in the sunlight, kids are done with their studies for today, now watching Little House on the Prairie. Samson is lounging on the floor at their feet. I've got some piles of books on the counters and tables that I've pulled out of the book closet I'm reorganizing... it always looks worse before it gets better, right?

One of my favorite things... my coffee/teeccino brew with lots of cream.

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week:

1. Huh. Whadayaknow?! That would be the same list as last weeks... *sighs* How about cross some of these out, as done! Hey, at least we are getting our studies done, healthy meals made, and a few other things even!
2. Weed  garden, maybe plant a few late crops?
3. Rearrange my bedroom, replace baby S's co-sleeper (which is beside our bed) with her crib, with one side off (it's one of those convertible types) so that it will be more supportive and comfy for her, more long term since it's obvious she'll be sleeping in our bed for awhile yet.
4. T is so excited because this means that it (the crib) is coming out of her room and she'll now have room for a desk in there, which means rearranging her room too.
5. Post some books and curriculum for sale to local homeschool list.
6. Finish re-organizing big book/curriculum closet.
7. Continue with N and T's lessons, which we started last week. We're gradually getting into our studies, hoping to be in full routines by September.
8. Post about that, our plans for this school year.

Here is picture thought I am sharing...

See all those blooms?

Well, they're apples now, beautiful and and quickly ripening. Soon it will be time for all of the fresh, organic apple juice we can drink, and apple crisp, apple pies, apple sauce, etc...

Hosted by Peggy @ The Simple Woman

Hosted by Peggy @ The Simple Woman

Outside My Window... it's dark and quiet now, late Monday evening.. Stars are out, and a bright half moon. We saw lightning bugs twinkling and bats flitting over the fields at dusk.
I am thinking... I am glad to have found this "Simple Woman" meme over at Heather's and Jacque's blogs today (two blogs I've also recently discovered this week...) I look forward to doing it on Mondays (maybe even regular-like)!
I am thankful for...

• *A husband that's worked hard all day in the hot sun, only to come home and work some more to finish a pen for two thankless goats, and is now tucking our 9 and 12 year olds in with Bible devotions, prayers and whispery snuggles...
• *A 12 yo boy who runs to get his baby sister out of bed as soon as he hears her waking cries, and gleefully hugs her tight as he exclaims to me, "I just LOVE my sister!"
• *Two new goats some friends needed to get rid of and gave us, that the kids have been doting over for the past two days.
• *The smell of sunshine in our clothes from drying them outside on the clothesline, which almost makes up for the card-board hard stiffness of the line-dried towels, heh!* and knowing that the Lord will provide $ for a new used dryer, or a dryer, before it gets too cold to dry our clothes on the line!
• *Friends that gave our daughter a beautiful violin to use for her upcoming violin lessons*which she's waited years to have* which our local co-op is offering at such an affordable price! Halleluah!
• *This old lap-top that's keeping us connected, even though our iMac is dead in the water.
• *Friends that call to spontaneously invite us over for a yummy dinner, and enjoy playing our favorite board game, with brownies and good, cheap burgundy wine, while our littles have a blast blowing things up and playing- loudly!
• *Learning to knit and a weekly knitting circle with friends who love chocolate and coffee- we had 16 kids last count- and N can get his weekly X-box fix too = big fun for all!
• *Shiny, new planner for our upcoming school year!
• *New apple green pocket calendar (to replace my used up one) that I write EVERY thing in, and
• *A daughter who loves new pencils, pens, books, planners and paper as much as I do.
• *The BEST Mother in Law in the WORLD! who's busily planning a wonderfully fun-filled long weekend vacation for us all in October!

From the kitchen... *peaceful sighs* It's all clean and ready to serve for a new day. Blender's ready to go for morning smoothies, coffee pot's ready for my mid-mornin' brew, and mixer's ready for makin' bread tomorrow.
I am wearing... black sweat pants and a green and white X-Alt t-shirt.
I am creating... book lists, to-do lists in calendar, schedules, plans to rearrange my bedroom, and T's, knitted scarf for N and a few posts and art projects in my head.
I am going... to bed soon, after I knit a bit.
I am reading... What the Bible is All About by Mears, The Laurel's Kitchen Bread Book and the Book of Lamentations.
I am hoping... to wake up get up early tomorrow.
I am hearing... Chris just came out from the kids' room and is rummaging up a snack in the kitchen, headed for the living room, where I'm gonna join him (going to knit myself while he watches the boob tube).
Around the house... sleep and cozyness, humming of box fans in each bedroom and mumbling of the tv in next room... and the *crunching* of chips.
One of my favorite things... evenings alone with my Chris, chatting about our day, catching up with eachother, knowing our chillins are sleeping safely in the next rooms over, just loving our life together, living with my best friend.

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week:

1. Weed  garden, maybe plant a few late crops?
2. Rearrange my bedroom, replace baby S's co-sleeper (which is beside our bed) with her crib, with one side off (it's one of those convertible types) so that it will be more supportive and comfy for her, more long term since it's obvious she'll be sleeping in our bed for awhile yet.
3. T is so excited because this means that it (the crib) is coming out of her room and she'll now have room for a desk in there, which means rearranging her room too.
4. Post some books and curriculum for sale to local homeschool list.
5. Finish re-organizing big book/curriculum closet.
6. Continue with N and T's lessons, which we started last week. We're gradually getting into our studies, hoping to be in full routines by September.
7. Post about that, our plans for this school year.

Here is picture thought I am sharing...

Seems like yesterday she was brand new...

I can hardly believe that she'll be a year old in less than two weeks!

...in which I shall parallel post with Birdie, who does so often seem to exist in a universe parallel to my own...

This time, Birdie wrote a wonderfully insightful, honest post here about momma/baby-induced and spiritual sleepwalking. It's deceptively short, encompassing so very much more than is apparent at first glance, so much of what I myself have been going through, but at a loss of words for... I guess that I can just relate to her post there on so many levels right now that I thought I ought to go ahead and post about it too, sleepwalking that is. Birdie, you've inspired me with words, which I've been so short of lately, hope that you don't mind my hi-jacking your thoughts and running with them?

...sleepwalking, naturally momma.

First, on being up throughout the night with Baby S... and feeling like I'm sleepwalking through many of my days. There was a short time, when she was a few months old, and still sleeping in her co-sleeper beside my bed, rather than in our bed, as she does now, that she'd started actually sleeping through the night, or most of it anyways, only waking up once or twice. I do still usually put her down in her co-sleeper to start out the night, but now that she can, as soon as she stirs enough to notice I'm not beside her (usually within an hour or two) she crawls right over to me and snuggles so sweetly down beside me. It's become a habit that I adore, and one that Chris and I have decided is in her best interest to continue to allow (as well as our own>>sleep).

When I asked Chris if he thought that I should try and transition her to sleeping in her crib, now that she's almost one, he said no, that she still feels like too much a part of me. I'd have to agree with him, in that it would probably be too traumatic at this point, for all involved... I just wanted to give Chris plenty of room to let me know if he wanted me to change our sleeping arrangements. It helps that we have a king-sized bed too... couldn't do this in a double, or even a queen (for us).

I do, however, sometimes refer to it jokingly as "the dark side of attachment parenting"... as she often sleeps literally... attached to me. *snicker* This is where the pacifiers came in handy with my other two babies. Though I enjoy it too sometimes, it's not always the most comfortable arrangement for me. The bright side though, for us, is lots of cherished moments of closeness that could be had no other way which are undoubtedly laying a forever foundation of lovingly woven soul ties. There's also the fact that she'll be one year old next month and I still haven't had my monthly return yet. It's been almost two years now since I've had to deal with it! Gotta love that.

Yeah, sometimes co-sleeping (or not) can wear a Momma out... However, I prefer it the way it is now, for the most part. And now that she's napping on our bed well, alone, every afternoon, the world is brighter, I'm having more time to do other stuff... feel like I'm awake way more often! She still doesn't sleep much though, during the days, for a baby! I guess it's all that good sleep she's getting next to me each night. Heh!

Like Birdie, I too enjoy my night-time hours with the baby and the Lord, alone. It was the same way with N and T, and I've mused over this idea that the Lord gave this time of solitude to us Mothers, especially designed it even, as a window of opportunity to pray for their souls as we nourish their bodies and emotions through the dark of night. I really don’t mind that baby S usually wakes me every couple of hours for a suckle before sighing off back to sleep beside me… I actually will often even relish it, and find myself whispering lucid prayers that vanish with the morning light. But that's just me.

The thing is though, that except when she's having a particularly restless night due to teething, regardless of the fact that I've been woken by her numerous times in the night, I find that I now sleep very well with her beside me and am actually more well rested than I was with N and T when I was getting up and going to fetch them out of their cribs to tend to them, and standing over their cribs for loooooong minutes on end trying to console them back to sleep... or laying in my bed, listening to them cry for me in the next room. I think that made for many more days of sleepwalking than does co-sleeping with baby S.

And, as is the way of things... the natural realm is so often paralleled by the spiritual... sleepwalking, naturally momma.

Like Birdie, I too have recently felt like I’m coming out of a sleepwalking sort of fog, not only physically, but spiritually as well. I tend to get so caught up with tending to everything around me that I find I've neglected that which is most important, just sitting at my Master's feet, and making a point to guard that time, not only for myself, but for my family's sake too.

I think that this sort of spiritual atrophy happens naturally if we're not proactively working against it, and is thus a condition we as Believers must be on guard against, lest we be lulled into dull slumber for much of our spiritual lives. I do believe that it can come from lots of things, familiarity (how many of us have found ourselves sleepwalking - on autopilot- in our relationship with our spouse), boredom, long wilderness experiences (read- extended periods of waiting), unbelief, complacency, lack of teaching, vision, unconfessed sin, and the list goes on...

In the last couple of weeks (maybe longer?) I too have felt an awakening deep within. I'm not sure if it's a re-awakening, or something new - a deeper part- waking for the first time. I do know that I have found such solace and renewing strength from the Spirit as I’ve entered into His gates with praise and thanksgiving. In the last couple of days, as I mentioned in my prior post, one particular cd has been played over and over at my house, and particularly "Open the Gates", and "Awake!" as well as the title song on that cd just resonate within me right now.

I've found that when the Lord moves me so strongly through one or two songs in particular like this, there's good reason, and I'm learning to tune into the fact that spiritual battle is being waged. Time to wake up, hunker down, that I may stand.

Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

There was one year I'll never forget, a very hard year on many fronts, that I listened to one cd, over and over, receiving my very life-source from the Spirit, His Ruach HaKodesh, through worshiping Him during those hours. She's still one of my favorite voices. My kids remember going to sleep in my bed, by her music.

The Lord has been wooing me to get BACK into the habit of daily Bible reading/journal time with Him, and memorization of Scripture with the kids… I have felt such a soulish hunger, a spiritual thirst.

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.

Truly, it takes a proactive effort to get up, once one wakes up, rather than to just lay there in a groggy stupor. I am glad to be awake, and I am listening to the songs of praise that the morning birds sing to my soul, songs of promise and new life. I must only stop... be still. and sit. down. at the table that He - My CREATOR- the GOD of the Universe has already prepared for me and partake of Him, Living Bread, the Manna from heaven that I do need a fresh supply of daily. How much have I missed already for hurrying past Him, as He waits for me?

1 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

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