the brew*crew adventure

...in which I will actually write a real post! Or attempt to anyways...

Blogging, oh yeah, that's where I have some time to myself, or not, (without a napping/nursing baby in my arms) wherein I sit, reflect and write out my thoughts (because both of my hands are free, or not) in some semblance of a coherent fashion (because I can, I really, really can. still... right? maybe? ...or not). Time to myself... heh, what is that?

So, where have I been lately, since I certainly haven't blogged much? Okay, let me just say that our precious little 9 month old baby girl is a handful, that rarely ever sleeps during daylight hours. Seriously! Now this makes for wonderfully restful nights full of quiet slumber, for the most part anyways, besides a few nights these last few weeks that is, as she's been cutting in her first four teeth all at once, and has therefore been particularly restless and fussy. Okay, see here, even now, here I am now trying to ignore the crying baby who was a minute ago playing peacefully under the table beside me, but is now bouncing up and down, desperately, as she clings to my knee, whimpering pitifully for me to pick her up... having noticed me attending to something else besides her, just so I can finish this sentence! LOL **

... Okay, now she's nursing peacefully... where was I? Oh yeah, determinedly trying to whip out a coherent post in the few moments of free time I had a minute ago. Yeah, right! *smirking sighs* But now I've digressed and it's turned into a lame post about trying to post. Case in point. As I'm feeling a bit distracted again, and wondering where all of those thoughtful, clever ideas I'd been ruminating over as I baked some biscuits earlier went to, now that I'm actually sitting here at my keyboard, I'm reminded of why little writing has been happening around lately on my part. Oh, and did I mention that our little baby S is a night owl like Chris and I, and matches our routine almost exactly, staying up with us until about 10:30-11 pm just about each and every night, so scratch the evening quiet time to think, alone, and blog, etc... and if I do manage to get her to sleep earlier... well then, lets just say that I have found other things more engaging than blogging lately, like maybe spending some one on one time with N, T or Chris.

Okay, as I was saying, she doesn't sleep much during the day... And OH! how I was looking forward to her easing into that rhythm of taking those long morning and afternoon naps that N and T used to take when they were babes. Now I think that I've accepted that it's just not gonna happen! Nope, not with this one, not unless she's snoozing in her carseat as we run errands. She'll usually only nap for 20-30 minutes in the morning and then again at some point in the afternoon, and maybe again in the evening (IF I'm lucky and Chris is around to snuggle her to sleep awhile). It's crazy though, she's just so different that way than our first two were!

And she's happy enough, it's not like she's miserable tired all the time, needing more sleep. Quite the contrary, she's energized and good to go after one of her what we've taken to calling "kitten naps". I remember when N was a baby, I had a friend who'd had a baby a week after I'd had him, and she'd comment to me of how nice it must be that N slept like he did, as her baby wouldn't nap- hardly ever. I was certain that she must surly be doing something wrong... ALL babies sleep. A lot. Day AND night. Right? heh. Now I know better... heh. Funny... yeah.

And when I'm not directly occupied with her, I've been busy tending to my other children, the house, or now, the gardens (at which time baby S is content enough to sit in her stroller in the shade of the apple tree and watch us- thankfully- she LOOVES being outside)... and alongside these most important things, I'm also ever hopefully looking for those moments of opportunity to steal away with the Lords of my heart, Chris, Jesus and my books. heh! I've also been readily accepting as many invitations to go to the park or a friends' house as I can, enjoying the lovely outdoors and respite from the cabin fever that was just beginning to creep and settle in my mind. So, as you can see, it's not that I ever intended to take such a long blogging sabbatical, it's just that tending to this bit of virtual space I call my own has been inadvertently trumped, day after day, regardless of my best intentions to write more. I have found however that I can readily upload and post pictures one-handed (as lately, any computer time I've had is made by way of multitasking as I'm nursing the girl). I know, I know, I sure have taken the whole "blogging without obligation" thing to heart, haven't I? Good thing too! LOL

Baby S's wakefulness has been especially demanding of me lately, as she's been teething and SO clingy all the time. I don't mind so much (usually), except that I am having a hard time completing other projects (though my veggie garden is all planted! Stay tuned for pics and post upcoming.), and was a bit frustrated at my recently missing out on going to a CM Mom's meeting at a local restaurant that I was really looking forward to attending, and had finally planned for, but because the girl was needing to comfort nurse ALL DAY long as those teeth were just coming through, all four at once, and her poor little gums were so swollen, I just knew that if I left her with Daddy, she'd probably see to it that he'd never let me leave her again! LOL Seriously though, she's never taken a pacifier, nor a bottle (yeah, we tried numerous times), and so only I can console her sometimes. That can make it a bit rough sometimes (read; NO breaks for Mama this year! hehehe), and I'm so thankful for the times that Chris takes her and snuggles her to napping. She does know how to drink out of a sippy cup now though, but only when she's in a good mood.

I know now first-hand, from seeing my first two growing up so quickly before my eyes, that this time is oh, so fleeting and so I'm truly savoring and enjoying just about every moment of it all, otherwise annoying inconveniences included, except for those other moments which - when I've felt so totally overwhelmed and inadequate when it comes to my being able to educate N and T lately (fortunately, they're able to do a lot on their own right now), or to even wrap my mind around planning for our studies next year... and then some huge spill in the fridge requires a complete cleaning of the fridge, WHILE I'm in the middle of making dinner and baby S is following me around on all fours, impatiently fussing "Maaa-ma- ma- ma" for me to pick her up (it is just SO cute, makes me smile even in the midst of it all), or some other unexpected accident/momentary catastrophe, or wishes and worries for my stressed out from work, or lack thereof, etc. husband, or felt lack of sufficient time to accomplish all that needs to be done everyday - sends me momentarily over the edge into snapping or even yelling at one of my bigger, unsuspecting (and certainly undeserving) kiddoes (which really upsets them- and me, because thankfully, I'm not one to do that too often). Yes, I've found myself dishing out more than my share of apologies and healing hugs these last few weeks. And I'm sure there will be plenty of time for planning studies, and numerous other CM meetings to attend, and plenty of days ahead to facilitate all that I have in mind to share and do yet with N and T. I am so thankful for this precious little girl that my arms ached so long for, that we all prayed for years for, although lately I have found particular solace in the simple words that I have printed on a sheet in the front sleeve of my AO/homeschool planning binder.

I spent years complaining about all the interruptions that occurred, keeping me from my work. Then one day I realized the interruptions WERE my work.

Poignant, no? And on that note I shall close. I sure don't remember N, nor T, keeping me quite this busy... good thing I have them to help out, and they DO help out! How I do love my work, and motherhood certainly is that>> work. It's been something going from having two older, somewhat independent kids to having a baby around again. Fun, fun for all! And just think, we may be blessed with another in the mix one day soon... I sure wouldn't mind! You never know...

Coherent or not, it certainly was cathartic to sit here and write a bit... I really do miss blogging and look forward to writing more, and I love this season in my life, being a busy Mommy and all it entails... In due season, blogging will happen, right? *smiles* I really do believe that I'd probably feel a bit less frazzled if I'd take the time each day more often to just post a little post at least, for me, and for you.I've so much to write about and my wee brain is just brimming with all that I'd like to share, because albeit babyfied, life around here sure has sure been bright, busy, bountiful and altogether most bloggable!

**Next day Update (yes, one-handed-while-nursing)**

Whadayaknow?! The girl did so good today. After falling asleep nursing in my arms, I was able to lay her down in her CRIB, and she slept for 40 minutes!! 40 MINUTES ladies and gentlemen! That's a record- for in her crib, which now that she's so mobile is the safest place for me to leave her sleeping. She crawls right out of her co-sleeper now, onto our bed, and would tumble right off if I weren't there as soon as she called for me (which thankfully she does), but now I'm wanting her to get used to napping in her crib... and today, SUCCESS! I was able to take a nice, long shower. Niiiiiice.

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